Just a moment ago, I stepped out onto my back porch and took a deep breath. It’s a delightful 69 degrees and sunny. My first thought, after the breath, was to all of the gazillion things I think (thought) I need to get done. And then spirit spoke:
this one moment is what it is about
I am…life is…we all are…creation is…perfect in this moment.
My panic and striving is because I know I spent 59.8 years of my life working on MY agenda and, now that I intend to be working on God’s agenda, I feel the need to get as much done as quickly as possible because I don’t know how much time I have left.
My next thought was to my new watch-word: Allow It refers to a new intention to allow others to be in a different place from me spiritually. It refers to a new intention to allow others to make different choices for their own lives…even if I know those choices will set them back. It refers to a new intention to allow imperfection…even in myself.
So, what was I left with? Awareness. Awareness that…in this moment…it is all perfect, on time, playing out, and in God’s hands. And I giggled: Is this fun?
That’s when I remembered those words, spoken to his team…while taking a moment…“Man, isn’t this fun?! Is this not fun? This is what it’s all about!” (the second video of the interview with Dabo Swinney. But, I recommend listening to the first video, too.)
This IS what it’s all about. It took me 59.9 years to realize that marketing myself and my talents was NOT what is was about. Now, after having cleared all that major clutter out of the way, I am working on small pockets of clutter that remain (small resentments, expectations, fleeting goals,…) and strengthening my awareness…my ability to hear the reminders and nudges to stop…take a moment…and acknowledge: ‘Ain’t this fun?’
(I borrowed the image above from http://www.seattlepi.com.)